If exercise is part of your body image issues when you go to the gym get on your machine and work yourself until you cannot take another step, do you think this is the answer to quiet that voice to quiet the turmoil inside your head?
The voice rages and tells you you’re never enough tells you you can never do enough. You will never be enough you have never been enough. And in the same breath, you are too much, way too much, taking up too much space.
All you want to do is find a way out of this hell. Sometimes you wonder if there is a way out of this hell.
You have tried to do it on your own and unlike other things in your life, you just can’t overcome it. Daily battling the shame of not being good enough has worn you down. Food has become the enemy. The scale has come to control you. Food sometimes even haunting you when you sleep or talking to you from the cabinet. Perhaps you have gotten to a point that you don’t even keep food in the house.
You are a prisoner of pleasing performing and perfecting. It’s like there are two different people in your head. Your identity has become an eating disorder so much so that you don’t know who you are without it.
If this is you, you may need eating disorder help and we are here to help you find freedom.