Freedom from Eating Disorders: Eating Disorder Treatment
Eating Disorders Suck!
You’ve been here before. In fact, you search high and low for help. Perhaps, you’ve even gone to eating disorder treatment before. However, you find yourself again overcome with shame and guilt. In truth, you want to believe that there is a way out. In fact, you want to believe that eating disorder support and recovery are real. You hope that one day you won’t have to live behind this mask or perfection.
Sometimes you’re able to go to work or school and no one knows. You pretend that everything is OK. That you are OK.
Inside you’re falling apart from struggling with binge eating and body image issues and more.
You look at the plate of food in front of you and all you want to do is throw it across the room. Or perhaps the sight or thought of certain foods makes you eat everything in sight.
People often say to you “I don’t understand what is so hard, just eat!.” Every time you hear this you just want to scream: if you only knew you just don’t get it!. Each meal is its own torture not enough and too much is constantly battling in your head.
If exercise is part of your body image issues when you go to the gym get on your machine and work yourself until you cannot take another step, do you think this is the answer to quiet that voice to quiet the turmoil inside your head?
The voice rages and tells you you’re never enough tells you you can never do enough. You will never be enough you have never been enough. And in the same breath, you are too much, way too much, taking up too much space.
All you want to do is find a way out of this hell. Sometimes you wonder if there is a way out of this hell.
You have tried to do it on your own and unlike other things in your life, you just can’t overcome it. Daily battling the shame of not being good enough has worn you down. Food has become the enemy. The scale has come to control you. Food sometimes even haunting you when you sleep or talking to you from the cabinet. Perhaps you have gotten to a point that you don’t even keep food in the house.
You are a prisoner of pleasing performing and perfecting. It’s like there are two different people in your head. Your identity has become an eating disorder so much so that you don’t know who you are without it.
If this is you, you may need eating disorder help and we are here to help you find freedom.